About me

My name is Marta and I am a Polish girl in her mid-twenties, trying to get back on track after a... serie of VERY unfortunate events.

After some time of a complete desintegration I thought I was not the only one whose life has been sent into space and blown up in less than a minute, so now is the time to shake hands and at least murmur something about the Girl Power, if we are not (YET) strong enough to shout.

I thought I can show myself that I CAN. That YOU CAN.

I will make it clear just now: I am not happily recovered, ready to spread my wings and to share my Very Confidential Secrets of Strength with You.
I am a goddamn mess, trying to find lost pieces of myself and put them back together. It is a process and I decided to record it. From the very beginning to the happy ending, and even longer, because a process of growth never stops.
I thought it may help someone like me to see a living person trying to overcome similar demons.

I am NOT here to prove You that having to start everything You had and knew from scratch is fun and exciting, because honestly, it is not.
I am NOT here to prove You that life as a single is happy and cool, because it sucks.
I am NOT here to prove You that You're unbreakable, because no one is.

What I will be trying to do, is to prove You and myself, that one can rise even from the bottom of hell. Step by step. Piece by piece.
Lame, scarred and devastated, but still putting one foot in front of the other.
I am here to prove You and myself that one can thirstily suck everything possible out of current situation and use it as a handle to escape from what You think is Your grave.

I am not a single step ahead of You.
I still feel like someone had thrown me out of a window of the 7th floor and I was unfortunate enough not to have died.
But lying down there I gained a spark of energy to start thinking of getting back on my feet and climb back there. Or higher.
If You're ready, plan this escape with me.